Tuesday, May 24, 2011
I am sooo scared that there is something serious going on.. I cannot drink anything and if I do I get an excruiating pain on my left side of my body under my ribs. I am scared because I was a self pay. I am scared that it is going to have to be deflated or removed and I am going to gain all of my weight back. I am so sore I just want to lay here and cry. I feel guilty that I if this does not work that I have failed again. I do not ever want to go back to that insecure unhealthy girl. What can I say. I go see my family doctor today and then I hope he contacts the surgeons. I can not get into see them until tomorrow and not sure what they are going to do for it. I want the xrays done. I have asked for them when I was having issues last summer but was always told lets un fill and see how that goes. So I want them this time. Not sure if it is going to cost money or if I can get it done here. I am so scared. What if it is something really wrong. Anyways thanks for letting me vent.