anxiety and other feelings

So I am slowly recovering. My appointment went well with one of my surgeons. He said I am healing well and that I should expect swelling for a couple weeks. He also believes the swelling is from the hernia repair site and not so much the lapband site. He said between the two repairs I will be tight for a couple more weeks. He said to keep up whatever foods that I could get in and if I tightened up more to let them know asap. I was suppose to go in to the hospital here and go on IV if I tightened up too much... They did not want me dehydrating as badly as I was prior to surgery...

I am becoming very bored with the foods I can get down.. I had an ensure drink and it literally cleaned me out for 3 days.. So that is no good... When I have my mashed potatoes I can get in about an 1/8th of a cup of them runny. Same as the cream of wheat. I was brave and added a tiny bit of white fish to my mashed potatoes and that was ok. I still can not eat or drink after 830 pm or in the early morning.. It is now 10:30 and I am just trying to get some juice down now..... Taking baby steps I am... I really want some new food ideas I am going crazy and getting bored with what I can have now....

I am starting to feel I don't know how to describe it. I want to go back to work but do not have the energy, so that would not be good. I am feeling kind of sad and upset.... Maybe cabin fever I do not know. Today I just want to cry. Not sure what is going on. My husband's job is stressful right now and I am feeling it. So much going on. Hockey, figure skating and so on... Hope it is just how I woke up and it will be good after lunch.

On another note I have started a youtube account. I am going to try video blogging. My account is bandsterjourney there as well.

Hope everyone is doing well....